I didn’t realize how difficult it was to write an adaptation of a play from a book, vs. writing a play simply from what my mind conjured up. I’m so honored and blessed that our paths crossed, that the Lord wanted us to meet and that she is allowing me to turn her story into a play. Knowing what I know about writing, I needed the right atmosphere and space; allowing the creative juices to flow. I asked my husband if he could move our small desk from our guest room into our bedroom. He, being very practical said, “We have a perfectly good and usable desk downstairs that you can set the laptop on and write.” Well, being who I am said, “But honey, it doesn’t have they same view our bedroom offers.” With a hint of naive persnickety, he replied, “Won’t that be more distracting.”
With my desk situated in my room, candles in place,book, pencil, highlighter and paper laid out, I figured I was ready to dive in. Not so much. 😦 I thought I was prepared. You know, comfortable setting, nice view, read the book, been meeting with the author, so what’s the problem. The lovely nemesis of writers block. How perfect our Lord is though. In reading my devotion today I’m overwhelmed at how well HE knows me and gives me exactly what I need. ” Go gently though this day, keeping your eyes on Me. I will open up the way before you, as you take steps of trust along your path. Sometimes they way before you appears to be blocked. If you focus on the obstacle or search for a way around it, you will probably go off course. Instead, focus on Me, the Shepherd who is leading you along your life-journey. Before you know it, the “obstacle” will be behind you and you will hardly know how you passed through it.” Wow! Need I say more.
I did it, I signed the contract. I feel I can officially say I’m a writer and director now. After I started making that statement to several people that asked how everything went, I started thinking about identity and why I felt I had to attach a title to myself. I realized though, I don’t want my identity; that which I am, to be that which I do. So who am I? I’m passionate, and feel deeply and everything. I’m ambitions and tenacious. I’m introverted and guarded, intuitive and discerning. I’m inquisitive, analytic, and a philosophical, optimistic dreamer. I am a child of God, daughter, mother, and wife. When asked
what I did for a living I would answer, with this undertone of sadness, “I’m a home maker/mom.” That’s crazy, I’m not sad for being a mom, I love that I’m a mom, it’s not what I do though, it’s who I am. Doing the laundry, making lunches and dinner, cleaning the house, helping with homework are the physical acts of doing something, but that doesn’t make me who I am. I think the reason I was feeling unsettled, was because I’m passionate, ambitious and a child of God and with who I am created these desires to do more than just housework. I desired to write and direct plays and now I can officially say, “I write and direct for a living!” I believe God wants us to identify with the Characteristics of Jesus Christ and allow those same characteristics to form in our lives creating who we are. I also believe that who we are many times transcends into what we do, but I believe we need to remember that the physical things we do don’t define who we are.
We meet again…I really need to stop neglecting you like this. I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately from people doing pretty adventurous things, traveling the world, getting married, having children, moving to exotic places…finding the cure to the common cold, you know adventurous things. I spent the weekend with my two favorite men, my son and husband exploring the rough terrain (it was in my head) of a dinosaur corn maze. Sounds pretty adventurous, right? I loved the excitement that my son had as we entered the maze; which way to go, right or left; the 3.1 mile walk determined to find all checkpoints, and to walk away with a gummy dinosaur. I guess adventure is really determined by the one living it out. As I look to the future, focusing on what adventures await me, I can’t help but reflect on my adventures as a mom, church volunteer, community theater volunteer and wife. No I haven’t physically traveled the world, or left the United States, but I’ve discovered new territories while quizzing my son in Geography. If you’re a parent of a 2 or 3 year old that’s adventure right there, ( oh how I remember those days). There’s a certain kind of adventure lurking around the corner working with teenagers, that’s every Thursday or youth group outing for me. Thursdays before group, grinding my teeth waiting to see what game my husband has come up with, re-defines adventure. It’s sort of a mystery what kind of adventure you’re going to walk into when directing a play and facing the final dress rehearsal.
Pressing on toward my dreams, dreams that I have kept in my pocket far too long, I feel like I’m about to leap off a cliff into a sea of uncertainty. I love my heavenly father, He will never lead me astray and I know He always has my back, but not being able to see all the details of what you’re about to jump into can be paralyzing sometimes. Being a Christian is one adventurous ride!
I know he will light my path, just enough to see what’s a few feet in front of me, but it’s still scary nonetheless. The Lord showed me almost a year ago a new adventure He was about to take me on; He lit up the path so to speak. I met this lady who wrote and published a book and had a desire to turn it into a play. I wont bore you with the details, but the “how” we met has the Lord written all over it; it’s unmistakable. Now about to sign the contract and start writing has me sitting here ready to take the plunge. Feeling the Lord tell me, “Robin one step at a time”, makes me snicker as my mind races with anticipation of directing my first professional play, that I wrote! Thoughts of the adventurous nights of practices, opening night and taking it on the road to other states overwhelm me with joy; yet I hear the Lord again saying, “Slow down, don’t get ahead of yourself.” I’ve prayed often about my dream, wondering if it will ever become a reality and yet here it is. I hear the Lord say, “grab onto my hand as I take you on this adventurous journey.”
In my devotion today it said, “The promise of My Presence is a powerful protection. If you take your eyes off Me and follow another’s way, you are in grave danger. Even well-meaning friends can lead you astray if you let them usurp My place in your life. The way to stay on the path of Life is to keep your focus on Me. Awareness of My Presence is your best protection.” Matthew 28:20; Hebrews 12:1-2
Thank you Lord that you want to use my gifts and talents in this way.
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Oh, how it’s has been too long my dear friend. Writing has always been such a friend that I can release myself in, sorry for neglecting you so. I recently read a post stating, “why do I keep putting the energy into something if nothing comes from it.” I can’t begin to explain how often I feel this same way. How many times I stay up late, give up free time, sacrifice fun, to put my all into something that doesn’t receive recognition, or how often my ideas or, “2 cents” is overlooked. But then, there’s that quite voice, that reminder of what scripture says, Hebrews 6:10-12, ” For God is not unjust so as to forget your work and the love you have demonstrated for his name, in having served and continuing to serve the saints. But we passionately want each of you to demonstrate the same eagerness for the fulfillment of your hope until the end, so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and perseverance inherit the promises”, or what 1 Corinthians 15:58 says, “So then, dear brothers and sisters, be firm.Do not be moved! Always be outstanding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord.”
I understand we want the rewards now, and we want that pat on the back. We want to know that there is going to be a pay off. The encouragement I can offer is God knows. I understand that may not be enough…I know how it feels to stand alone and to patiently wait…so does Jesus. This life is hard, people get caught up in self, they are unintentional with their words or sometime lack thereof. People fail and disappoint, but God’s word is fulfilling, his promises kept, and his love eternal.
After helping with auditions and interviews for an upcoming musical I’m a part of, and working with teens in youth ministry for; well I don’t know how many years now, I’m perplexed.What is it about people who choose to follow the teachings of the bible, about christian organizations, and/or churches, that either draws others wanting to be a part of this “sect” of people, or leads them to mock, judge, ridicule and put down those that live this way? There doesn’t seem to be a gray area. I asked one of those auditioning, why this type of performing arts group vs. another? Answer, “Because, I won’t be looked down upon because of what I look like.” I recently asked another young adult why they don’t go to church? Answer, “Because I’ve been judged, I was looked down upon because of the things I’ve done in the past.” How is it two different people experienced two completely differentreactions from the same type of group? Christians.
I would actually like to set this up as a discussion forum rather than just sharing my incites on this. So please comment and share your view points.